I'm pretty sure I know who you are, based on sentence structure and Jeannie's characterization.*g* Great job! A masterpiece of PassiveAggressive!John. chorus: Oh, John. And SelfSabotaging!John -- and oh man, I *really* believe that part. He is the *ideal* guy to self-sabotage by saying nothing, and to internalize all kinds of crap from being closeted.
It had been an anchor, weighing John down every day of his life. He'd had to fight it to just not drown, but when it was gone, he'd been left thrashing wildly, making a mess of his life and everyone around him. He hadn't known what he was doing, only what he wanted.
This really sums it up. Excellent.
Did you mean us to know that: Knowing if I trusted someone and was wrong it could cost me the Air Force and a court-martial, maybe even jail time -- has not been true for 15 years? Leaving the service, yes, but not court-martial or jail, that was supposed to be the upside of DADT. I wasn't sure how unreliable John was supposed to be.
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Date: 2009-12-17 02:06 am (UTC)I'm pretty sure I know who you are, based on sentence structure and Jeannie's characterization.*g* Great job! A masterpiece of PassiveAggressive!John. chorus: Oh, John. And SelfSabotaging!John -- and oh man, I *really* believe that part. He is the *ideal* guy to self-sabotage by saying nothing, and to internalize all kinds of crap from being closeted.
It had been an anchor, weighing John down every day of his life. He'd had to fight it to just not drown, but when it was gone, he'd been left thrashing wildly, making a mess of his life and everyone around him. He hadn't known what he was doing, only what he wanted.
This really sums it up. Excellent.
Did you mean us to know that: Knowing if I trusted someone and was wrong it could cost me the Air Force and a court-martial, maybe even jail time -- has not been true for 15 years? Leaving the service, yes, but not court-martial or jail, that was supposed to be the upside of DADT. I wasn't sure how unreliable John was supposed to be.